waiting

waiting
for this to be more than something about me
waiting for him to draw me
to himself
to reveal
to be more than I could expect
or imagine

no longer about me
me
trying to please
me
trying to perform
me
abiding by a set a rules

waiting
waiting
waiting
not watching the clock
trusting timing other than my own
ignoring the stares of others
ignoring their impatience
for they are uncomfortable with my waiting
assuming it is complacence

not apathy
but trust
wanting it to be solely about the drawing
of him
to himself

seeing a glimpse
in an unexpected way
the desire starting to grow
wanting more
longing more
resting
trusting
unexplainable

him

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