The "man" we had in common

I was awakened by a phone call.
The call was from a woman I did not know.
But we had something in common.
Her boyfriend.
The man I'd been seeing.
One in the same.

All these posts I've written lately that are so filled with pain?
Written for him.
His behavior has been shady.
I suspected something was up.
I trusted him though.
I believe in people way too much.
I expect good things from them.
I have faith in them.

But my good faith has broken my heart.
I was a toy to him.
Something to pick up when his friends had gone home
and he was alone.
The hours I spent waiting on him...
Hoping he'd come play with me.

He's a fool for letting this amazing woman go.
I'm a bigger fool for putting up with the charade.
For months he's played me.
And I let him do it.

I have learned what amazing friends I have today
They have asked to take me out
They have asked me if I needed to talk
They said they didnt' care if I cried.
They have reminded me to be kind to myself
as I am kind to others.
I am so blessed with wonderful friends.
I could not do this without them.

I pray that I will be brave and strong.
That I will realize what a worm Paul Metzger is.
That I will realize that the glimpse I saw of his heart
that I fell in love with
Was only a mirage
It was something I wanted to see, that didn't exist after all.
He has no heart
To do this to a woman
to TWO women

God, make me brave and strong
Make me see past the games
And see people for who they really are
Help me to guard my heart
And not give it away until it is time
Bring me the man that you'd have for me
One that is gentle and kind
That will treat me as the prize that I am;
That you've made me to be
Enable me to guard with a vengence what is precious
And not allow these theives to remove it again
I am so tired of being stolen from.
They are not worth it
The prize is being trampled on.

Help me to forgive.
I hate him today.
Like I've never hated anyone

Please take the hurt away.
I hate the hurt
I don't want to hurt anymore

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