V DAY

Today is V Day for me... Not Valentines as most are celebrating...But My Veterans Day! I am a Veteran of love. I've done it and done it and done it. Obviously something is not quite right. I am 35 and am still searching.

In spite of this, there is no bitterness in me. I am grateful for my experiences and for those I have loved - those of late anyway; the ones that have been good to me...the ones that love me to the very best of their ability. As my precious Glo taught me (and my faithful readers will get tired of hearing me say this), people can't give you what they don't have. I do not fault those who haven't given me all that I needed. My heart is big and I give much; therefore, I presume I expect much.

In college I used to dress in black on Valentine's day. I used to joke about wearing a heart with the international symbol for no through it. In truth, I was just hurting because I was alone and lonely. I won't say that my newfound singleness doesn't have it's moments of loneliness. Most of the time I'm so busy I don't have time to be lonely. I have so much perfecting in me that needs to be done that I have been a warrior at perfecting my health and my wholeness. It's a big job! Maybe when I accomplish my goals I will be ready for my warrior with a heart ready to give me what I need.

This Love Veteran is grateful for the love I do have in my life today. My friends, my family, my precious niece, and my guy friends who can pick up the slack when I need a little attention. I am blessed and I am grateful...even today!