My Gem :)

My friend pointed out today that my blogging had slowed down since I wasn’t sad anymore... I guess the blog was an huge outlet for me when I was grieving. However, there is still growth taking place; still truth to be told!

Sad no more, for sure... I have entered into a new phase of life with my sweet gem, JBS... :) I am finding out what it truly means to be pursued. The book I’ve read and the post I wrote some time ago regarding ‘he’s just not that into me’ is certainly not an issue now. I’m learning that it is possible for a man to care and to show that he cares... this precious man calls and visits and expresses the most beautiful words to me to show that he cares...

I realize that guarding my heart is important... I’ve trusted before and been hurt before. I’ve hoped and hoped, and been let down, time and time again... So many of my posts as of late have demonstrated that, my yearning for love, my longing to have the intimate, close, fun partnership that I’ve craved for so many years; the union that men have laughed at me for and told me that such relationships were only in fairy tales...I thank God, though... not only for my precious gem, but for the fact that as much as I’ve tried to be a cynic, I’ve held out hope... I’ve trusted that the love I’ve longed for was a desire placed in me by Him and is something that is not impossible... I believe that cynics are actually those that yearn for love like me, but who have given up hope, because it hurts... Being loveless does hurt.. But the possibility of that love never being realized hurts even more, I think....

I am so grateful for the recent weeks... They have been few.. But my moments with J have been endless... We have shared so much with each other, in such a short amount of time, and I am so very hopeful... He is precious and I praise God for him....Thank you Father. Thank you JS.... Here’s hoping for many, many more precious moments together....