The depths of me

I have spent a little time reading through past blog posts today. I think I needed that. I have come across many people from my childhood recently and have my 20th high school reunion approaching. I've had so many feelings come up: The insecurities of high school, the doubting and questioning who you are...The cruelty of kids.. But these posts have been so good for me because they are my TRUTH.. The truth is not that I'm a fat kid. The truth is not that I didn't make the dance team, or that I was so foolish to even try out. The truth is not that the cool boys won't ever like me. That may have been my truth once. But my truth now is that I am a woman of passion, of integrity... I am a good friend. I have a heart full of love. I am compassionate and generous. I am far from perfect.. I fall short in so many ways. But God has given me depth and a seeker's heart. These posts remind me who I truly am. It's hard to shut out the voices of others (or the voices that you THINK are the opinions of others, which may times are not true at all) and hold your head up high remembering the TRUTH of who you really are...

I have so far still to go. But I have COME SO FAR... I pray this continually, but God, please give me courage to be who I really am. To hold my head up high and be brave. To focus on MY truth. On what REALLY is... Not on what I think it is, or on what other's may think I am. Thank you for my depths and all you've created me to be.