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Grateful

I am grateful today. I haven't posted much these past few months. I have learned, though, that even silence can speak volumes.

I've always been interested in journaling; I guess that's one reason I love this blog. I read a book on journaling once and it said that one shouldn't condemn themselves for periods of not journaling. The author stated that even in the silence you are learning; and the very essence of silence in your journal can say a lot.

Some things that have been going on are too personal to divulge on the world wide web. I've also learned that certain loved ones of mine don't want their lives to be discussed or their identities revealed. This stung a bit as I enjoy sharing those I love with others. I can be naive though about the evil in the world and those that lurk on the internet; and I certainly love those in my heart enough to respect and honor their wishes.

I am grateful today for several reasons. There is an inner part of me that has struggled all of my life; for no known reason. I have a wonderful family and had a good childhood. I have always struggled with my weight and obviously I have scars resulting from that; from not fitting in, from not being part of the "in crowd", from kids being mean and wounding my ego. As I've grown older, though, I've learned that value comes from within and have a pretty strong sense of self. I have precious friends and have been blessed. BUT in spite of this, I've still struggled.
The gratitude comes from the fact that I've had some incredible people come into my life recently and I've learned just why I have always struggled. The pieces have been put into place and I feel like a normal, stable, level headed human being. Due to preconceived notions and stigmas in our society, I won't go into depth with all this. I am just so grateful to those who have revealed the truth. I'm grateful for modern technology and the wisdom of people that create things that make us better. Life is good. I am not naive to think the struggles are over. I simply have the tools I need to fight and to think clearly as I face the world.

I am grateful for friends that make me laugh. I am grateful for friends that you can pick up where you left off, no matter how long it has been. I am grateful for sleep and Fridays and books and TV shows/movies that I can get lost in. I am grateful for my puppy who licks my face and gets so excited to see me; loving me unconditionally. I am grateful for my daddy who is silly and makes me laugh. I am grateful for his ability to hold his head high and laugh in spite of a degenerative disease. I am grateful for times alone with friends. I'm grateful for love and romance and for having someone to share that with. I am grateful for friends who believe in me and encourage me not to take life so seriously. I am grateful for God's abounding grace; for never leaving me even though I deserve to be left. I am grateful for the hope of career that I enjoy and the possibility of freedom in a career and in my finances. I am grateful for parents who will let me live with them until I can completely gain control of my finances. I am grateful to God for helping me step outside of the box and helping me to see more clearly.

I pray that I will continue to grow and see even more clearly. I pray that I will stay even keeled, confident to face whatever may come my way.

Jung quote

Anyone who wants to know the human psyche will learn next to nothing from experimental psychology. He would be better advised to abandon exact science, put away his scholar's gown, bid farewell to his study, and wander with human heart throught the world. There in the horrors of prisons, lunatic asylums and hospitals, in drab suburban pubs, in brothels and gambling-hells, in the salons of the elegant, the Stock Exchanges, socialist meetings, churches, revivalist gatherings and ecstatic sects, through love and hate, through the experience of passion in every form in his own body, he would reap richer stores of knowledge than text-books a foot thick could give him, and he will know how to doctor the sick with a real knowledge of the human soul. -- Carl Jung

Thinking.Feeling

A wise person that I know said the following:

"Thinking cannot tell feeling what to do".

I think the statement may revolutionize life for me as I know it.

Any thoughts on this statement?

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This wise one also said the following:

"Too many Christians focus on being RIGHT rather than on being REAL"...
man oh man how I love that...

Dawn

The night has been long and dark
Ages it seems
Striving to see,
to thrive
but there has been blackness.

A helper comes along.
Guides me to the place I can see
Renewing hope
renewing the chance
that sight will again be possible
for this one longing to thrive.

The sun begins to rise
Suddenly and unexpectedly
Casting light upon the darkness
Renewing hope
Things become visible in the light
Understanding is clearer

Growth can begin
Dawn has come

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