TGIF!!!

Oh, how I love Fridays. I get to wear jeans to work. I spend time thinking of how I will get to spend my weekend. There is an overall sense of relaxation; knowing that the end is in sight! Sure it's just temporary; just a pause. Yet it rejuvenates me!

I am thinking of starting a second blog strictly for my new health journey that I've ventured on. Not a diet. Not "training" (because training comes to an end eventually). But permanent change. I've had years and years of poor habits. Honestly, I've had lots of bad habits in all areas of my life. I am doing my very best to take charge of my life. To be gracious and be brave at the same time and conquer these small habits (that add up to be a huge disorderly life).

I'm working out, I'm eating healthy, drinking my water, trying to get enough sleep, trying to keep my living space clean, trying to have a balanced life... Normally when I venture out on a new journey, I am so hyped and believe that I can conquer the world. I am facing these changes with a bit of humility this time, I guess. I realize that I can fall on my face in a heartbeat. I know that permanent changes must be made. I know that my lifestyle has to change. I know that's not going to be easy. And I KNOW it's going to take a LONG time (I didn't get this way overnight - it's been 35 years of poor habits). But I'm doing my best to take it one day at a time. Pray for me in my quest, if you think about it. :)

Things with J are still going fabulously :) We see each other pretty much every weekend. After several months together, though, we're starting to settle in a bit; we realize that we have our own individual needs and loved ones as well, and take time apart from each other when needed to take care of our own needs. I am so grateful for him. He is by far one of the very best things that has ever happened to me. Thank you, Lord, for this precious, precious man...

I'm still LOVING school! I'm about 7 weeks into it and, as everything else in my life, I have a long way to go. But I'm doing my best and learning a lot. I think just possibly, I've finally found what I want to be when I grow up! Sheesh! It's taken long enough!

I'm feeling a lot of gratitude today. Life is good. I am blessed. I am grateful.

SARK - "How to be an Artist"

I love SARK... Don't know if you've heard of her or not. She is an artist and an author. An encourager ... I have several of her books. Many may find them "hokey" (I surely would have years ago)... But now I find a sense of calm and encouragement as I read her stuff.

Here is a taste:

HOW TO BE AN ARTIST

stay loose. learn to watch snails. plant impossible gardens. invite someone dangerous to tea. make little signs that say yes! and post them all over your house. make friends with freedom & uncertainty. look forward to dreams. cry during movies. swing as high as you can on a swingset, by moonlight. cultivate moods. refuse to 'be responsible.' do it for love. take lots of naps. give money away. do it now. the money will follow. believe in magic. laugh a lot. celebrate every gorgeous moment. take moonbaths. have wild imaginings, transformative dreams, and perfect calm. draw on the walls. read everyday. imagine yourself magic. giggle with children. listen to old people. drive away fear. play with everything. entertain your inner child. you are innocent. build a fort with blankets. get wet. hug trees. write love letters...

Can you take any truths away from this? I know I can....

Back to studying :)

I'm still here!

Hello friends and neighbors. Yes, I am still alive... It's been almost two months since I've posted! Yikes! I've had so very much going on though...

I've started school! I am officially a student at M-TEC, an online school for medical transcription. I have wanted to pursue this for about a year now and am so excited about it!

I am still with my sweet JBS! We've been together for three months now and I completely adore him. We spend every weekend together. He makes me laugh, and listens to me, and talks to me and is so AVAILABLE... Which is something I've needed for years. I honestly have not been in a relationship like this since I was 19 years old. You know that one that you shouldn't have let go? (doesn't everyone have one like that?) J is my second chance. I completely adore him and am so grateful that he is a part of my life.

My days pretty much consist of work, study and JS. I'm trying to maintain a balance (which is ALWAYS a struggle for me) and concentrate on my health as well, in addition to my family and my friends.

I am off to study a little more before bedtime, but wanted to touch base with the 'ole blog.